12 AM | October 17, 2017

The discovery

Never have I welcome the color red so warmly in my lifeWeeks before I planned my big night, a devil red dress was already in my sightsAs red as the apple in Eden, the color looked sinful and liberatingAnd so it wasDays before my birthday, I found bloodDripping from my thighs, I almost cursed the universeI wanted to cry "why"But the color came as an opportunity to realizeI was undergoing a purgeMy body being cleansed from within, from my insides

The freedom

All that is dead must leave my womb...That made me think about the corpses of love affairs I stored there tooI saw the freedom the universe sought to give meAfter my sacrifice and the dawn of my new year I would have a pure bodyUntouched and unmarred by men and womxnI would be free from all hands that aren't mineMy body to become a temple for all that is divineAnd since I have no god, nor a Nicene Creed to heedI prostrate myself towards the AtlanticI reconcile my spirit with the seaI thank the water before and the water inside me

The understanding

So I've come to learn that red is the purest colorFor it is through water and blood cells that I maintain my life and bloodlineIt is through blood that I am made pure...made cleanIt is through the purging and multiplication of blood cells that I will be healed Images by Neo Baepi (@neonohetero)